What is this blog? ꩜ .ᐟ
a gallery of my thoughts and feelings, but nothing too personal bcz the internet is 4ever!!!
where have i been
12/04/2025, Saturday, 5:46 pm
tldr: ive been busy
i registered to the uni im going to a few weeks ago and ive been living with family.. sighs.. tires.. so tires. yesterday wasnt very good, did not sleep very well but its okay.
school has also been ass fucking me like im its bitch like plap plap plap bro. but its okay i only have one more month left!!
watched epic and it changed my life. thank you so much puerto rico for giving us the best musicals everr
lost my shit but the diva is back
06/02/2025, Thursday, 2:48 pm
Im moving to the motherland in t-minus 22 days and i deadass lost all my shits. i lost all of them. its all gone. shit is GONE gone... oh no,,,,but its okay :'333
but i gt through it and i can see things clearly now i just feel really bad because the aftermath caused so much turmoil within me. i feel so mentally tired so im trying to take a break rn! ill take it easy, but yeah nothings happened really after that, which is good
fucking art block kill me
27/01/2025, Monday, 9:54 am
I HATE ART BLOCK I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO DRAW AT ALL IM GONNA KILL MYSELF WHY IS THIS SO HARD i cant even pick up my stylus anymore why does my digital art fuckign suck i need to practice i want to die KILL MEE KILL EMEJLEIJ>DEOHEHDKSJ seriously i literally cannot do this its so bad i cant draw or many im just stupid tears in my filipino eyes
i think i might be cursed
21/01/2025, Tuesday, 4:00 pm
yesterday it was my birthday. i didnt really think id enjoy it but i really did, for a bit. something happened after but i dont really wanna talk about it. that is to say that i think im cursed. every year something really bad happens on it, and i can never stop. i thought maybe this year id at least try to enjoy it but i guess its just not for me. I wont be celebrating next year, hopefully that lessens its impact.
to anyone whos birthday is soon, happy birthday, but to everyone who doesnt celebrate it, i'd like to join your club :)
heres my cake, was really good!!!
art trouble
18/01/2025, Saturday, 9:29 pm
recently, ive been really struggling with my relationship with art.. sighs. I've always been an artist. Not in the snobby, im a real artist i huff paint and lick it off my brushes type of artist, but the general: "I draw" way. I recently made this site to show it off actually, after carrd kinda fell off i wanted a solid site to make my art more accessible but right now.. I've lost my spark. I havent touched my tablet in months and my sketchbook is sparse. sighs I'll figure it out :'3
in any case, I've had much more time to enjoy my many other hobbies. I've crocheted a hat, and I'm almost done with my leg warmers! When im done, I'll show them :3. School has started up again and ive been such a clutz. I really hate being in class I end up making a fool of myself all the goddamn timeee uufgkdhs,jk. It's okay its just highschool.